Inevitable death.....True happiness?

Wow...

So I'm reading over Banach's lecture and this sentence pops out at me and almost smacks me in the face. I begin to wonder about the "worthlessness of our lives given our inevitable death". I immediately think of the saying, "life sucks, then you die". I mean, if that is true, then what the heck is the point of being here? Is it worth it to have fun and accomplish your goals if it is all going to end anyway. At the moment, I'm listening to Anabor's 'Let The Games Begin' and there is a line that says, "It's the thrill, it's the thrill that I live for". It makes me ponder if that sentence is foolish, based on Banach's general idea of 'life sucks, then you die'. Is it really possible that "our life is a series of meaningless actions culminating in death, with no possibility of external justification"? I really hope not. I, personally, take pride in my accomplishments and I have a habit of reminiscing over all my good or not so good memories. Is it all just a waste of time?

Ah, but the real question is that aren't you really wasting your time if you don't take advantage of the one life you have? Just because death is inevitable, does that mean we shouldn't participate in life? I think if we are going to be on this earth for 70 or so years, we should definitely have fun, live it up. I mean, I think that's way better than being emo and stuck in your room all the time and not connecting with people that could actually make a big difference in your life. How can you ever really experience happiness if you're like that?

But then again, what is true happiness? How can you achieve it? I somewhat agree with his idea that "one must lose all hope of external value before seeking value within. The theme that true happiness must come from within is one that is familiar to all of us, and it is the key to understanding the existentialist conception of happiness". I say somewhat because while I do agree that happiness comes from within (you can choose whether or not to be happy), I also believe that you must look further than what inside you to achieve happiness. I only say this because I personally get most of my happiness from interacting with others. Of course, not everyone is like me so some people don't need companionship to be happy. But because no two people are alike, can there actually be a definition for true happiness and how you can achieve it or is it something that is different for everyone?

I've just been rambling but I feel like I have a little more understanding...but like I said before in a previous blog....an answer to one question raises a million new ones.